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| Curiosity....what would that lead you to...
Many times when I go to places to eat, I tend to order the same thing...
At the spaghetti place, I would always order 11
Sun cafe, I would always order set 4
Eat Tokyo, I would always order Salmon Teriyaki Bento
Some have asked, why don't you try something else...
I replied, when you have found something you like, why bother trying everything else...
Then they say, because you might find something that taste better...
I disagreed and still I eat the same things every time...
I don't know...sometimes I guess when you're so used to something, it get difficult to change...curiosity may lead us to wonder what other things on the menu might taste like...
But can we be bothered to try something new....something different
Is there a need, when you have found something that is suitable to your taste, to try different things...???
Recently, I have realized that no.11 no longer taste the same...but I still order it...
why...
because of loyalty???surely you can't use these type of words for food... but then I order it every time thinking that I like it the most but every time I would complain about how disgusting it tasted....
but why...
Why have my feelings and emotions become more and more complicated...
Crying every night for this....Is it really worth it...??
It's like a knife stuck in my heart...
leaving it in, will give me slight discomfort but constant and forever pain...
pulling it out will give me unpredictable pain but may heal after, at an unknown rate...
Do I choose the way of life that I have gotten so used to...
Or do I move on hoping to find something better...???
Does this make me a bitch to even think...
Is this my curiosity...???
When will I get to smile, truthfully and sincerely...??
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| I was looking out of my train window today...I see many billboards...Many billboards asking people to donate money...Many are for charities...We sometimes say...There is no God...If there is a God...There will be no poverty...There will be no poor...There will be no suffering...And everyone will be happy...In this equation, many people would agree, there is no God...To be honest...We are the people who has turned this world into a disaster...We are the people creating technology that kills our world...Many people around the world are dying from the simplest disease that we never worry about...People are dying from colds, flu, or even just an infection...We are VERY capable to cure them...But why don't we...???If you're able to read this, it means that you have a computer...Something that we don't NEED to survive...We, as a country, spend millions on things that are priced well over its actual worth...Louis Vuitton, Gucci, Prada, Mui Mui...Do we really need these bags that cost about a grand each...???To be honest, No...but we still buy it...I am guilty of it...With the resources that are given to us...The land, the food, the people...Everyone can be healthy and happy...But because we are greedy...Because we are selfish...People that were born in the wrong places are now suffering...I hope that when people read this, it will change their feelings when they see charity people with buckets...Many say, they're a con....but I rather be cheated and put some money in it rather than not helping... A few quid is nothing to us...but to others, it's a few meals...Let's stop being selfish and greedy, even if it's just for that few seconds...Smile because one day you'll realise, someone is smiling because of you...<3 | | |
| She studies hard and tries to become an independent woman,
She works her way up trying to be stronger and stronger...
yet she also wants to stay at home and just be a simple housewife...
the vulnerable, naive one being taken care of...
She learns to drive and looks for her dream car...
yet she also longs to just sleep in the passenger seat while he drives...
listening to music while stuck in traffic and wouldn't need to worry...
even if there's not a single word of conversation, the atmosphere will always be warm...
She boasts she's good at this and that...
yet she wants him to teach her new things and tell her what is right...
She reminds him the work he needs to do over a million times...
but really, she wants him to tell her what she needs to do..
she just wants to know he remembers her...
She tells him to eat healthily and don't eat this and that...
but when she's ill, she prays that he will come and see her...
Drinking the soup he made or lunch he cooked...
She smiles to the world saying whatever comes, she'll face it with a smile...
but she longs for him to hug her tight while she's crying...
telling her that everything will be ok...
He did everything that she never imagined anyone to do for her...
but she didn't have happiness...
One thing he didn't do made them lose everything...
They are now strangers with regret...
Our wants and needs sometimes contradicts...
What do we really want in a person we want to be with...???
Most of "She" was me....
Is She you...?
Or are you He...??
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| I haven't blogged for so long....I guess I just never had the chance to recently...but there is something I really want to share...yesterday I went to church...it's not that I've never been to a church before since I used to be forced to go there with my secondary school to listen to loadza boring stuff about Christmas etc etc... but yesterday was completely different...This is one of the things I heard yesterday...You plant a seed before you harvest it...very simple right????TOTALLL COMMON SENSE...but to be honest a lot of people don't actually realise this principle throughout their daily lives...and these people include myself...recently I've been very down...mum has been away alot...whether it bein illness or hong kong...so I had to take care of the rest of my family....being stressed over my resits, I still had to do every chore in the house...with not a single person helping me...I cried a lot....I wondered why my dad didn't care....I wondered why my brothers didn't help...I wondered how they can see my do everything and just sit their and not take any notice in me...am I just a maid in my family??? why do they take me for granted??? I cried and cried....I thought no one cared for me....no one loved me....Then I heard the principle of harvesting.... you plant before you harvest....this means you give before you recieve...you cannot harvest before you even plant the seed....when a seed is left on it's own, it will not grow...no matter how many years or centuries...it will still be just a seed....you must put the effort to plant the seed, water the seed, wait with patience and hope for reward....you cannot be a person that doesn't give love and then expect people to love you...you cannot expect people to treat you as a true friend if you don't try to treat them as a true friend first....Then I argued...I put 101% and more into my family...but why do I feel like a recieve very little...Then I realised, when you plant a lot of seeds, there's a chance that some plants may grow strong, some may be weak and need more time and patience, and some may just turn bad....Even when you put a lot of effort, there's always a chance that it will turn bad...but if you don't plant the seed in the first place, you will get nothing...I don't regret doing everything I can for my family...but I regret complaining about it....because deep down, I know they all truely care for me and love me...I just need to put more effort into loving them...I need to do more...My oldest brother just went to Hong Kong...I was so surprised at how much I cried...I never knew it would hit me so hard...I cried at the airport..I cried in the car...I cried at home...I'm crying while thinking about it now...I regret not spending enough time with him...I will plant more seeds and look after my seedsbecause I know I will be happier =)
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| My exam period was not long...Only lasting just over 3 weeks...In such a short period...What can go wrong...???EVERYTHING!!!!Finally, all my exams are over, I'm so happy, today was like one of the first times that I can just sit and watch series for hours without caring...During exam period, every episode I watch was time that I waste...[even though I still watched an episode or 2 a night at least hehe xD]My first exam went quite well...I think it's pass-able...but after my first exam, that night I started to get muscle pain...it didn't seem much so I didn't do much...soo wrong...so so wrong...the next day I had flu...what good timing???I couldn't sit...I could stand...I couldn't sleep...I couldn't even watch series...and I couldn't revise!!!!And the worst thing...I COULDN'T EAT!!!! For people that know me, I need to eat a reasonable sized meal or a lot of snacks every 2-3 hours [so exams are hell for me] Therefore, me not eating is a BIGGG deal for me...After a few days, I actually thought I had swine flu...fever, chills, shaking...you name it, I had it...So, in the end I went to the hospital...I swear I go there every year now xD...good news...SWINE FLU FREEE!!!!! Then I had my 2nd and 3rd exams day after eachother...That's one exam failed for sure...Then after about 3 more days...I started getting a cough...coughing constantly in an exam is SOOOOO annoying!!!! I feel sorry for the people around me...OK...4 exams gone...2 left on the last week...I thought YAY, coughs gone, illness gone...I'm better...then I put some cream on my legs...ALLERGIC REACTION!!!!!!!!! Great...JUSTTTTT great....aH welssss....everythings over so now I can just chill...AND I'M GOING BACK HK IN 4 DAYSSSS!!!![since it's like nearly 5am in the morning] Why am I still awake...gawddd I need some sleep...nyt nyt  | | |
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